So Far Yet So Near

a suprise!

2009-04-03T10:37:00.004+08:00

it was a surprised!
Recently, I got Celcom in my list. Client was verbally confirmed the renewal when we were meeting up together with 2 bosses. Friday is last day of sponsorship, and I was told to give a call to client to double confirm. Client has not totally rejected, but due to budget constrain, they might reconsider of it. i was overwhelmed with it! smile on the face isnt nice.
Today I got home for dinner, as usual, I'll makan first before go up to my room. Mom was ironing clothes, while sis in law was in the kitchen... while i was taking my food, sis told me that she saw Alan, she told with smile.. then i have asked mom, mom said she does not know... mmm... i felt something wrong but sweet in my heart... i told them i just finished conversation over phone with him.. sis asked to check out my room... mmm.. i suspected might be something surprise for me.

i quickly ran up stairs, an open door slowly... i saw a long and colorful thing sat on my desk. i ran up and took a look... haha...
"TO MY SHARON,
HOPE THIS WILL CHEER UP YOUR DAY.
LOVE U:
Alan

i quickly called Alan... silly him... but i love him much enough till my tears in my eyes.

changes

2009-03-22T03:19:00.003+08:00

these few months, there were a lot of changes in my life; regardless my personal life or in work.
at work, at first, most of my colleagues left for good... and new head of sales who we all hated most was finally resigned due to new management came on board. what a huge relief to us!
few months back, i started lost passion at work, i got no solid reason why i feeling that way... may be i am searching or finding a career or something that i would want for myself. yeah, i always ask myself what do i really want... thinking of many things that i want to do, trying to brainstorm for my future... first, i always want to complete my dream- going back US for Master degree and work and live there forever... second, i want to start a business by bringing in a skin care from Japan... third, recently i have thought of to become a wedding planner... forth, i want to run florist and special gift shop... last, i want to get a promotion from current job...
I have turned down my first dream, because i finally got someone who i cant live without... i cant leave him for years, and if i do so, i would probably loosing the greatest guy i have never met who complete me! yes, dear - it's you - and you told me twice - you complete me! and now, you do complete my life.
second, third and forth dream would still workable here... thanks to dear who will support me all the way as he promised.. :)
the last dream... yes, i just got an offer from my current manager. he recommended me to become a 6 months acting assistant sales manager. he asked if i would take the challenge... and told him that Yes! i was waiting for it long time.
however, at the same time, i got an offer from my previous COO who is now the CEO for Red FM. Yes, the Star RFM now has two CEOs - 988 and Red FM. Current sales team is all under 988. Red needs people to run the business... and the former COO wanted me to be in his team. first time i felt uncomfortable talking to him - a 6 months special tasks was not sound so nice to me though... i felt like it's a secret... and i needed to give my answer by next week....
my future... is on my hand... sorry, i would choose my last dream and stay for what i am having now... 988

cozy saturday

2009-03-22T02:37:00.008+08:00

we got a plan to Cameron Highland, but it was canceled. yeah, i have no faith with Cameron! a lil disappointed, but after a thought, it was fine... work for our future is more important.
almost 2 days i have not seen my dear, i miss him so much, but it was not too hard for me, because we both got the same feeling... love!
after work, dear came to my house, once i saw him at the door, i was jumping and hugged him tide! he said i seemed like a dog?! how sweet am a dog to him... hahaha...
i am very happy, he got me a suprise.. he made me to kitchen, when i walked out, i saw a rapped gift on dinning table... i was wondering if i saw this before or not... i walked to him, and asked if he saw that before he came... he laughed at me and said - darling, that's for you! i quickly jumped over a grab it, and quickly jumped over him and opened the gift. very nice, classic wrapping paper; dear always get good taste... i slowly opened it... it's a sketch book... not a normal sketch book though, my face was in it - a cartoon me! and a message: "Sharon, Thanks for being with me muuuuuaaah.... Alan" - am touched and happy! thanks honey!!
we went out bought McD for our dinner, also with 4 cans of our favor beer - Carlsberg Gold. we had dinner while watching Discovery channel - Man vs. Wild. very nice show but a bit disguishting... it was ok!

today was our first weekend we spent time at home... it was nice, and comfortable.. we started our small lil talk as usual... dear suggested to get a single bangalow house.. and he told me that our toilet must at least 6 times biggercthan the one in my room... wow... i definately agreed as i want a tub, and a jacuzzi for sure. I wonder, how our dream house could come to picture... i cant wait for him to draw me a sketch of it.
I love you darling, and thanks for everything you have done for me... your heart which melt in my way... i long you like the river valley... it will never stop - hahaha - that's your words to me!

a very precious life

2009-03-16T03:02:00.005+08:00

I am feeling happy and glad that I have finally found someone... single life for years, searching for the one was ended when i found Alan. he is such a nice person, he is fun and loving... nevertheless... he is crazy! but i learn a lot from him even thou we have only knew each other for 2 months 16 days... although it's only such a short period of time, what we have been thru so far - sweet and sour stories... sorrow heart and tears were ended... these tremendous experienced bringing us closer and our relationship to another level.
It's so hard for me to express my feeling in words right now... once, the greatest thing he ever said to me was the 'I LOVE U'... i remember it was at Finnegans Mid Valley on 4th March, 2009 (Wed) after watching the Watchmen premier which i thought was sucks! these 3 words were the most powerful words that work very well in us. i was speechless when i heard that, but my heart was powdering the same feeling as him..
As day goes by... and our relationship is growing, and we are planning towards our future. Yes, today, he told me this in his car: dear, i love u so much, i think we are match, no matter how people thinks we are not, i still love you, and i do want and plan to marry you... dear, i am serious... WOW... no one has ever said this to me, it's only heard it when you truly found someone special, someone you want to walk your rest of life together...
i realized that... love is essential... it can be found everywhere and from family and friends... but it's hard to find someone just like Alan...

amazing love

2009-03-15T02:26:00.006+08:00

a true love... a true feeling... a true amazing couple started at this moment... we have found the uniqueness to ourselves and our relationship... the last day of Feb, 2008 - 28th was the most memorable day for us to keep and to celebrate...

i have never ever felt so good being in love, and being loved.. i love you much much more honey!

silent day

2009-02-19T11:07:00.002+08:00

i wanna hear, i wanna say, i wanna feel... it stops for today, broken signal from me for today... i want to be silent for a day...

BBQ@home

2009-02-16T01:55:00.007+08:00

i have never ever experienced bbq on a plastic table. of course not my idea, my genuine bro said ok at first. look, it does not work though. he made me laughed at his stupidity!!! lol... sorry bro

bro bought 4 sets of bbq, but only 3 were managed to put on fire. bro started to put on fire at 5ish, but he failed... well, he is not a camp guy, so i dont expect much from him... then his life saver came who then set these up in few minutes, thanks to dear! of course i laughed at my bro too.

we had very simple food, sausages, ham, minced meats, corns, peppers, mushroom... these could possible filled up our stomach well. i felt the grilling part was the fun, as after you have finished grilling, you dont feel like eating much.

i was very unsatisfied with this picture, as dear got his eyes half closed! dear complaint that the flash was too bright for him... eh, no excuse though as my eyes could be possible bigger! oh ya... this picture was to replace valentine's picture that we forgot to take one!!!

the take 2 was terrible, not even his eyes were open! yuck... but love it... lol... at least he looks silly cute

hui xin was enjoying us taking pictures... she was wondering, what the hell these 'gu gu' and alan 'go go' doing? she was too cute, jumping around to show her dance with her nursery music on... aiya, she was trying to get attention from her alan 'go go'

after cleaning up the mess and all food, i took out and let all of them tried my first cake in KL.
*sob sob* it wasn't turn out good, but still acceptable. dear said it's too sweet... yeah, it's sweet like me!
recently, bro and mom started enjoy drinking wine, they opened a bottle... yet left 3/4 for me and dear.
we took our cups to near by garden just beside my house... we sat on a huge bench, dear immediately slept on it while i was watching him... we had a good time together, and yet i started to know him more - to me who stand or be with him, i feel i am no one, and the more i talk to him the more i feel like he is someone, and a great person with great brains... and yes, dear... i want to go to school with you, and be the bossy demanding gf you have ever had! i want you to do all my homework for me... and i want to disturb you when you are doing your homework... but yet, we both together feeling the world...
(we saw birds in group traveling a cross our country, dear saw owl passing by him right in front, we saw a bright satelite... and the cloud with stars above us...)

i : i am glad i have met you...

Valentine's Day 2009

2009-02-15T02:37:00.004+08:00

my v-day was sour but it turned sweet in the morning... dear does not tell me his plan until friday. he planned to spend time with me at my hunt. at first, i was a lil bit disappointing, but, after hours after my unconditional anger realization... i love it... there is no romantic restaurant; no candle lights dinner; no fancy deco; no expensive chocolates... but we had spent quality time together, and feeling was the greatest joy!
dear woke me up with calling before he left house... but i was sleeping still when he came in to my room in suprised! we were mingling and i got a valentine's kiss... sweet ^.^
dear planned to bring me for dimsum at puchong, but after that we both lazy to get out and to laze on bed for hours till niece came in to look for her Alan 哥哥. i was so jealous that my niece will never want this gugu anymore. look... the silly them were so happy sticking micky stickers..

we were then head to McDonald to have our V-Day lunch... all because of her, dimsum canceled lo... these 2 are click since the first time they met, and him bought candies to just make her happy... eh, i dont even have a share though... ^.^ the tiger, the dog, the horse... ding... dong... where is the sheep??!! hahaha

well, we did spent 2nd quality time together without her!!! hahaha, hard to get her away though... poor Hui Xin.. sorry... muack muack

Pre-CNY gathering and CNY

2009-02-13T10:34:00.016+08:00

first time outing with them - SevenateNine
(Gladys, Jerald, Emily, Tina, Steph, Khai, Alan, me, Stephy)
23rd Jan, another 2 lovely colleagues have left us for good... Tina and Emily, good luck in your new job, with a better HOS... ^.^

i love this lovely dovey lips-lips kissing with Steph babe, oucccch... i cant resist it

yeah, after the kiss...

of course must sayang my dearest Alan after kissing with Steph... ^.^ nice

who's naughty hand??

two couples - the sweet and the silly

family gathering on Chor yi @Sam's bungalow
my cousins Nyuen Nyee, Chung Nyin and Sam

the 'V'

my lovely niece, Hui Xin - who always call me 'gugu gugu'

Alan and Sharon's movie night in chor yi @ Midvalley

One of the mini market @ Cherating street

our first night dinner... nice food, especially the sambal asparagus and the '7' years home made chillies with garlic sauce

naughty dear pull off my bikinis, made me tan for at least 1 hour.
Alan's friends tom, mae, kok han

Yik Kee Restaurant@Karak... all said the egg tart is nice, but when we reached there all were sold out. we had their 'siew pau' instead... oh, the 2 uncles were very friendly... nice ^.^
kok han was being sissy... ooooopppppssss!!!!!

the '2' in action... bang... arrrrrrrr ^.^

nice cloud... taken in 'jenny' while heading to kampung bukit tinggi... yo, eat again, dear appetited was too good! we had crispy pork noodles with black sauce... really nice! make sure you stop by while on Karak highway

being sexy with my white tiger, while the other tiger was busy driving... lol ^.^

again... the '2' silly were in action while 'jenny' was bathing... hahaha... Ah neh pun tak tahan!

my 2009 started with a completely new life new me... the silly chapter started...
hope the chapter will completed happily after and feeling completely... oh God!

Chilling trip

2009-02-10T01:41:00.001+08:00

Cherating trip was our first trip made together with few friends. Althoug there were few hip-cup before the trip, but it ended beautiful.. with a 'jenny' got showered experience.
The first bikini experience at homeland was despite sweet, lovely and fun!
I have found myself, my strenght and i have learned a lot...

a suprised night

2009-02-04T02:17:00.002+08:00

started work today after a long cny break, and yet i was let for GSM. it wasn't so bad, as he does not yell at me, instead, i got a red pocket from him. after 2 hours long, meeting was over, and i have replied few emails before heading to the star. last meeting ended 5ish, and i drove slowly to meet up dear.
i was a bit too early, and waited for him for about 1 hour plus. it was ok, and i did some useful task by cleaning my work folders and prepare for all last months receipts that had leaving in my car for a month. i was looking around, and i saw dear's car, but yet i did not see him around.
around 8.07pm, dear finally appeared in front of me... i was surprised, i thought someone had sent him home. meanwhile, dear pointing towards behind me... yeah, he got his new car!!! and he wanted to give me a surprise. i was so happy and enjoying that moment.
later, we had dinner together with alan's sis and her husband. we all hopped in his new car... nice, sleek, queit... we both like it... nor we all like it! first time meeting his sis, a bit of scared, but yet, not too bad, i handled it well... and i think alan is start trying... and make us working.
after dinner, of course dear wanted to bring me for second round. we went to st. andrew at damansara club house, yet i was so noisy, and we decided move to other place - desa park city. we chatted a lil about work... here and there...
we were kinky, happy, and closer... and we kissed with feeling the wind blowing out our heart beats.. cool.. yet warm..

first day of cny

2009-01-27T04:03:00.003+08:00

first day of cny... spent almost a day with family and relatives... headed to see dear and we went for movie - IP Man. dear wanted to watch this for long time, we headed to midvalley for midnight show. it was surprised that quite a number of people there... i thought most of people has already gone outstations/hometowns/overseas...?? as born local, every years are the same. not very special to me.. but, this year is different, because i have found someone - ALAN NG!!

Hahaha... let me introduce him to you all... we took this picture at midvalley before the movie. look, how cute are we being together??? hahaha, sure he will laughing at me... what a bad intro!?

relationship

2009-01-26T02:47:00.002+08:00

we are keeping it... and i could only work this out slowly with someone you love for a longer period

Gong Xi Fa Cai... may Ox year bring us happiness and peace

dinner@ikea

2009-01-20T00:52:00.004+08:00

taken 2 hours off earlier to get myself to hartamas. bought few clothes but yet to buy a pair of new shoes. was planned to go bangsar, and supposed to meet up dear to have dinner together. plan changed instead we went the curve. nothing much to shop in curve, but managed to buy him a shirts for cny... ha... suprise!
waited at starbucks for 30min, and he was late. as usual, he was showing funny face to me and asked what would punishment for being late. ha.. he gonna think where to dine. we chit-chat at starbucks for awhile while trying finish my mocha. he was crazy enough to look at my newly done hair style. he gave compliment. thanks...
we walked up to ikea restaurant, and had salmon and salad with juices. i felt comfortably enough whenever i am with him... and we almost kissed?? :)
we had ikea ice-cream for dessert, ya, was sharing one! we slowly walked back to curve, while then we hang around ikea entrance to finish up our ice-cream... that moment was very special, undescrible...
not able to see my dear for the next 3 days... and good that he wanted to see me today... :)

being loved

2009-01-18T02:21:00.003+08:00

i love him and that's the beginning of everything. The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart. Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction.

There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved

move on

2009-01-08T10:41:00.001+08:00

life has to move on..

2009-First day @ Work

2009-01-03T02:36:00.003+08:00

my first day at work in 2009 was not good at all... my heart was broken, and my tears were dropping again...

i am rationalizing these equations, and hope to get answer from you all:

1. replying or responded emails = complaints = issues (True or False) ?

2. ALL CAPS LOCK in emails = GENTLE REMINDER = not RUDE (True or False) ?
do you like to see all CAPS LOCK in emails???? are you????

3. definition of RUDE = asking for clarification on what reasons being question report not done (True or False) ?

4. giving feedback = too many complaints = attitude problem (True or False) ?

my heart is aching and i have never cry because of all these stupidities...

i have never ever being forced, or no one shall being forced to make instant decision if i want to leave my job or stay with my job NOW!!! no way... as i said, i got nice ass... beaten it if you want

i wanted to talk to you so much, and i would love to listen your advise... and i know you are tired and enjoying the beautiful days there... and i shall... and i miss you!

mamma mia

2008-12-27T00:54:00.005+08:00

(attended the official launch of Mamma Mia!)

yeah, tomorrow am going to watch mamma mia again with anakin. first was watching with mom.
thanks to azura for kind invitation which allowed me to have 2 extra tickets.
i've been champion this project (on radio part) since October. for me, not too excited to me any more though! but, i'll still enjoy the abba songs... knowing you knowing me, dancing queen, super troupe, i have a dream, take a chance on me... these are the few songs that i really enjoy.

(one of the road show@sunway pyramid)

(terry with the daughter and friend, steph and me with the daughter and mom)

it's a good show, you all must go watch the world #1 smash hit musical!!! it's worth a thousand

MBA??

2008-12-26T14:36:00.003+08:00

so sudden going back to school appealing to me when I woke up this morning.
recently, feeling frustration at work, making me to think about my future.
i do complaint, and yes i am not happy at all! not only me, fellow colleagues feeling the same way.
should i going back UIU for MBA? Yeah, I shall ask for scholarship, if they do give me half sponsorship, I would just go back and study again... it might be a good idea, as econ is bad for next year, and yet demanding boss is getting ridiculous!!

i am typing this in office... what you want to do with me if you know this??!! come catch me!!

trust faith

2008-12-26T03:18:00.003+08:00

今天在msn上看到一位朋友寫上這個：
"时间最他妈的不是玩意，一点点的流逝让你暂时的没有感觉，只是回首的时候才能知道原来的一切早就跑了啊！剩下的都是满身的遗憾了"

看完后我就躺著在回想他寫的這一句話。。
爲什麽我們要遺憾或後悔呢？我們做每一樣事情都不是情非而已嗎？
流逝的感覺不代表你永遠找不回來的感覺嗎？
原本的一切跑了不代表你永遠找不回來現在你身邊的一切啊？

爲什麽我感覺到你在怪你自己呢？

a casino christmas night

2008-12-25T14:49:00.000+08:00

(i bought a 'Kayu' Christmas cake for colleagues... )

I have no plan for Christmas Eve at first, planned to go home dinner with family, but, last minute plan caught up me and vincent, the two with no date, and we dated ourselves in Genting! i was unprepared wearing a thin blouse and legging, luckily the weather and the wind blow isnt that bad, in fact, a bit hot for me. our plan was at first attend a charity concert at Arena of Star, but we turned out had dinner with Darren, which so happen that he was there with Dawn and wife. about an hour, Dawn yawning and wanted to sleep, a good daddy brought her back to hotel while me and vincent walked to resort hotel searching for arcade games. it was packed with people... especially the younger ones... we bought a cash card and started our journey playing around in arcade. we were satisfied being a little child for few hours, and headed back to first world to meet up vincent's parents. Uncle and aunty were complaining about the gala dinner concert that they had earlier, and worrying about vince driving down. I comfort them with no worry and to make sure he drive safe. after a 15min conversation, the parents went back to hotel, and us was walking around first world... then of course, Starbuck-ing! at the same time, we were waiting for Darren for our casino battle... he has no turn up!!! but we still carrying on our plan. Hahaha... we were very happy loosing our money to uncle lim!!! we were damn crazy to give out our money with no regret. we left Genting around 2.15am... then second round was having drink with Pearly at 3am!(vince said i seem like a pregnant women... hahaha)

221208

2008-12-23T01:38:00.004+08:00

while driving home from the party, was listening to love classified, just near proton city, my tears dropping a lil... why? am still asking myself now...

may be am lonely... may be i think i'll be have no one to celebrate festive seasons together... neither christmas or new year... why? am still finding a good answer for myself...

am i that bad?

8-hour gathering

2008-12-21T05:06:00.001+08:00

After 1month ish i have spent weekend at home, i was out to visit lydia. YC and Danny were picking me while KP was by himself. It has been awhile we were not meet, since my birthday party they got me at lydia's old restaurant. Everyone is busy with their schedule, and time flies till we didnt realize how much time we were not in touch. But glad that our friendship is still remain. These people are the closest one that we have grown up together.. With lydia, we used to be enemy during primary school; with KP, we were primary school love fighter; with YC, our big sister in high school.. Danny is YC's boy, knew him since 2006. Each of us is having different life, lydia has engaged with kelvin for almost 10yrs; KP got married for 2yrs with no little one yet; YC and Danny are getting better; while me, am still a lone ranger.

5am

2008-12-08T04:00:00.003+08:00

i woke up early... yeah, i know it's holiday and not suppose to wake up at this hour.
my head is full of working agendas, i could not sleep well... i am not complaining about work, i just want to earn as much money for these 2 months - great reason is to have a great holiday in US.
i was talking to Denise (one of my uni mate), and we will be meeting up in NYC. AA has already confirmed our meeting at Orlando, Florida. It's great as there is a magic town! well, I want to go disneyland, but i am going alone?? hope i can invite my friend to join me along, otherwise, i'll be exploring the magic dreamland by myself. well, as usual, i'll be traveled alone, always be the lone ranger. i am not afraid, but afraid of lonely. i always want to find a partner, but i could not, i failed.
i am watching MPV valentine... it's an old taiwanese movie, from the movie, it's making realize a need of communications in a relationship is very important. my recent relationship with him was over in 2 month. ever rush for anything, nevertheless same to work. i aiming high, and i always want to climb up - this is part of my personal achievement - but too bad, someone has told me my failure and reason why i lost the battle. yes, i have yet to show off my ability, and i only work for within self. i have to work harder now... it might not as easy as those days, but i'll always try my best!
i am thinking to get a ipod touch... should i? haha...

busy week

2008-11-24T01:50:00.002+08:00

last night, i had only 3 hours sleep. woke up around 7.45am, showered and prepared to pick up Cynthia and we were headed back office for an interview recording. we were there a lil early, and we had a drink at mamak. Cynthia is from Mindshare, and we work very closely for 2 clients. after the recording, we went back.
sigh, next week gonna be busy week. just read my office email, Maxis is calling for a radio pitch for next year plan. it's gonna be tough. Maxis has never call for a pitch. I foresee that their advertising budget would be cut down again for next year. however, they would want to spend the money worthwhile. well, i have to work out the plan by next week, otherwise, they wont get in to our stations.
wednesday and thursday are sales training sessions. i have only 2 days to work out the plan.. :( not only that already have few appointments for these 2 days, and yet need to rush out scripts for cimb as well...
damn.. can anyone offer me 48 hours a day? please?

sick weekend

2008-11-23T03:39:00.005+08:00

sick sick sick... since wednesday, still a lil running nose... nose itchy making me sleepless at night.
already 3.40am, i am still awake! gonna wake up early and head to office for a interview recording. of course not interview me... it's for my client. tune in to 104.9, and u will get to listen to it... title? quit smoking!
i am watching an old HK drama while typing this. another weekend i am staying at home and with family. nothing much to do, as usual watch tv and playing with Hui Xin. Also read some self-improvement book and mags.
anyway, i think i should go out and have a walk! can u go with me?

the aBuGang

2008-11-19T23:58:00.004+08:00

(abuPearl, abuKe, abuSha, abuGin, abuLing, abuSteph)

I Miss You All

i need the energy you gave me
i need the laughter you bring around
i need trust like you
i need your shoulder when i cry

silent days

2008-11-19T23:04:00.002+08:00

i have no idea what is happening now in office. i am speechless at this moment. i am only concentrating on current on-hand jobs, and i wanted to get it all done well. other than that, i am awaiting for my trip and trips. nonsense things better go far from me!!!! don't create rumors as you wish!!! god is here watching us... stop talking, stop mingling, stop everything!!!!! i warned u!
i cant read your mind i cant see your front i cant see your back i cant see your real face!

the greatest day

2008-11-19T20:58:00.011+08:00

i had a great off day! ever since my holiday in september, today is the greatest holiday for me!
my day completed with just having you. no complaint, no rumor, no argue... we were well understood our communications. Action speaks louder than words! I don't have to explain my attitude... mutual understanding is needed!

yes, I broke off with him... i feel it right... i feel it i shouldn't continue on a relationship with someone who does not have trust and faith and even betrayed once... forgiveness could only accept once!

I am fine... and always fine... no worry... me is still sharon

I am very happy now!

Cute

2008-11-17T02:21:00.001+08:00

Lying on my bed while waiting my eyes getting off... This picture of my cute hui xin was taken last month when we had buffet lunch@Lemongrass. She is growing up, speaks english, asking man/canto questions, and she answered with english. She is always naughty to me.. Some times even spank me and crying without touch her.. But since i was staying home during weekend to play jengal with her and had jelly together, and even a trip to mc donald.. She was satisfying...

a call

2008-11-17T00:28:00.005+08:00

As usual, I've spent my quality weekend with family at home. Nothing much, just playing Jengal with niece and mom while watching Mickey Club House. I have not go out for the past 2 weekend; reason? wanted to save money. Last Friday, received an email from Jo - my Alumni Association President - Yes, we are reactivating the club again after inactive for a year. of course, my trip back to US is happen again - I am going Florida next February, will attending Alumni social and board meeting. This time it would be a long holiday for me. I would probably taking about 20 days off! I wanted to go LA and NYC! I miss Yen, Frank, Denise, Cindy, Cal... going to meet my old schoolmates... I have not been to Florida, I heard there are a lot of beaches, cool... and Disneyland is there too! well... i hope i have someone to follow me this time! would that be you? I am very excited about it for now... and yet need to work harder for these coming months so that I could have more vitamin m to buy coach, tiffany, etc...
i was a lone watching old HK dramas on you tube... *ring ring ring* a call from you... from now am still guessing whether am dreaming or what... crazy... yet thanks to you brighten my weekend... love and for you!

a doom weekend

2008-11-15T11:36:00.002+08:00

it has a lot for last week...
there are a lot to say, but it's useless if saying too much; why not just keeping mouth shut.
i've been in media industry for about 21 months. At first, I was buffed to want learn radio so much, put all my energies and effort to source from bottom up left right about it, so that I could grasp the industry a bit deeper. For now i am still learning. as a employee for 21 months, a lot of good and bad changes were happening non-stop, everyone of was hoping and only hope once, the change would be a good and challenging. however, what we always hoping are not satisfy; therefore, the changes is still in progress; and the motives, the objectives... all unknown to us. frankly speaking, we are like lost sheep! i used to be opinionated, would voiced up my comment; but when disappointment came along nor you see nothing to be changed after your speech; well... i rather keep quiet and do my work. as a sales person, although we are not the super sales person as per say, but we work hard to get revenue for the company, hoping everyone could get a share of it after year end. a sales person, we couldn't close sales without other inter-departments' helping hand; sometimes, we are not giving troubles or too much demands on you; but we need inter-dept cooperation as much and we need your support so much. we are working under one roof; we all are the company's employees, thus we need to work along. i foresee the structure of the company is wrong; it seems to me that it's a dictator or one man decision maker! may be i am wrong... but sorry i just felt it that way now.

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2008-11-12T22:38:00.005+08:00

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a sad awaken night

2008-11-06T05:08:00.001+08:00

already 5.08am.. am still awake.. rushing up a proposal for appointment at 10am.

yet, my heart aching.. why men never understand women??

sad monday

2008-11-04T01:20:00.003+08:00

weird weird weird
reached office a lil early, a new head of sales was on board, we had our first sales meeting with him. a canadian born chinese with excellent american slang.. he speaks fast, and we got his lecture - 'tradiotional media vs new media' - during the first meeting. imagine... how serious is him at work. no play play... no kidding... yet to know him much though, will find out the true him later.
anyway.. why sad monday??? familiar faces were gone... first moment i was stepping at the sales department... june was not there... went in traffic, connie was not there... walk to gin's desk, she was not there... went to programming, ssl was not there... went to cat, jascie's desk was replacing with a sexy mdg... all these sucks... every steps, every where... there are memorable moments... i kept queit, and preparing my next week production... and i shut up, but my heart was crying!

truly wishing all of you, all the best, stepping into a better milestones... cheers!!!

long distance relationship is not easy... it needs a lot of communications, and good understanding between ourselves... listen one way is that way... indeed, i am just need loves... and please show it off to me... i am not crazy, nor demanding...

the best time

2008-11-02T16:50:00.003+08:00

i remember the monthly battle of mars and venus on red 104.9... it was a reality show which we all remember that so much. it brought us to on-ground with free entrance to most clubs and we got free drinks. a lot kinky nights with beloved DJs and pretty colleagues ever.
ever since one to one was leaving the company... the company, and people changed!
especially, the Halloween 2008, it was sucks... and was a sad day for me; 5 lovely colleagues were stepping out the office with full hearted emotion. my heart was swollen with quietly leaving the office before i see them walking out from their deks.
couldnt turn back the old time, but we could always remembered the good memories we have...

i just feeling sad... and please leave me alone here...

need motivation

2008-10-20T23:48:00.002+08:00

work is getting dull, 4 more colleagues are leaving by this week. kinda a sad week for us, well, at least for me!! i have never felt this sad

sad

2008-10-18T02:06:00.002+08:00

i just need you to communicate with me... and understand me more...
alone..

blue monday

2008-10-14T03:34:00.004+08:00

it was a frustrating monday!!!! i stay in office just to finish some work for 'mm' project!!! time and energy were wasted! why... i don't understand... why?? pretty upset that what you have planned been canceled because of the popular demand? how could such a big corporation has no planning and yet everything canceled at last minute????? you thought radio is a medium whereby you can abuse using it???? you thought our listeners are stupids???? all shitty things are just pissing me off!!! cant stay it for more from now...!!!!!! making over plans are on... yes it's on now!

i just want to think about other stuffs than work now... need a peace of silent head..

weekend is over

2008-10-12T22:41:00.005+08:00

nothing much for this weekend, just stay home and spend time with family. tomorrow is monday, there will be a group sales meeting at 10am. gotta getting up early as meeting is compulsory.
i have been working with Star RFM since Feb 2007. i was hired as Red sales. during that time, as according to my ex-manager, i was a top Red sales. well, i admitted that i was good in selling Red, every month will bring in sales no matter how much it was. after few months, management decided combined 2 sales teams into one. which means the restructured taken place. at first, i was hard to adjust myself to sell 2 stations at first place. as we all know that 988 has it's profound profile, and much easier to sell than Red. after the restructuring, within few months, the sales teams restructured again! hell ya, I myself also confused how many times already been restructured. last week, manager complaint about me being not able to sustain Red sales. ya, i admitted that my Red sales sucks now! you all know why!
i am not complaint; but i just don't understand why we need to restructure as so many times??
to the recent scenario whereby most of the experienced AMs were leaving the company; I have asked myself few times what's the biggest obstacles that our company or our department are facing??? and why we can't sustain their hard work for the company. i used to be someone who were opinionated and will voice up a lot during meeting... but after few times, i have stop doing that and instead keeping queit. reason being was i dont see any changes nor action taken seriously. what for i need to put in effort to make it work for everyone?? one thing i have learn here is to become - just do your own work! it's frust that you are seeing your colleagues leaving. of course, i feel happy for them that they have better opportunities or offer out there.
after my long break, i am thinking whether i should explore the opportunities out there??? or i just stay and wait or continue my working attitude as - Just do your own work!!!??? i remember in August i have wrote i will stay a bit longer... however, i need to rejustified my statement
i shall not write working issues here... but who care... i am just talking from my heart...

a V day

2008-10-09T23:31:00.000+08:00

today is a happy day for me, although there was a hiccup during the day (not suppose to mention here though...) anyway... i got my new madellion grey MyVi. Sales agent sent it to office and explained everything to me... the best was full-tank of gas!!!! i didn't test drive it until rushing to the star for mamma mia meeting. lucky vincent was there with me... he has been complaining me driving like aunty and slow and he said i've never treat the vitara this way... :) anyway, who will drive fast in rain nor with new car?? aiyo... new car must drive extra careful and extremely cautious on the road la... must jaga a bit la.
well, i am satisfied with everything; exterior, interior, the bluetooth function, the USB function... mmm... but not too sure about the outside noise proof for the car. the noise might came from the new tyres... well wait and see...
anyway... can anyone suggest any name for my car???? hahaha...

busy day@work

2008-10-07T01:39:00.002+08:00

it was a busy day... one week away from office... felt a bit difficult to concentrate. a bit difficult to catch up existing job load. but not too bad idea that october target was being revised again, and it was a good news for me. well...

SHARON is... thinking about something... i am planning something... wait and see

back to work

2008-10-06T00:47:00.003+08:00

my hong kong trip was just over. going back to work in 9 hours, and yet my heart is still floating with hong kong. as promised to myself, i gonna work harder for these coming months... cheer up girl! luckily am getting my MyVi by this week... yeah.. it shows that i need to start a brand new me!

**yeah, trying to finish all my HK trip blogs... stay tune ya **

3rd day

2008-09-28T01:30:00.016+08:00

it's my 3rd day, and i woke up late; woke up around 11ish. had my first breakfast with Jacky and Eileen near City One. we had it in a traditional restaurant "茶餐廳"(cha can teng). It's just about 2 min walked from Jacky's apartment. i ordered sausage with noodle set which come together with eggs with bread and a cup of ice coffee. the breakfast set was damn huge, and it was quite normal for hongkie, but it was more than enough for me. the breakfast set costs about HKD28.

after breakfast, i have received a sms from sharon low. she has arrived at the airport. we decided to meet up at Mong Kok area after she has settled down and check-in to her hotel. i was preparing myself, and get ready to meet her later.
about 3pm, i took city bus - 218A from City One to Mong Kok. my first time taking bus alone, and i was just guessing where is my stop suppose to be. jacky gave me an Octopus card since first day. The Octopus card "八達通" (Baat Daaht Tùng) is a rechargeable stored value smart card used to transfer electronic paymentsin online or offline systems. it was launched in September 1997 to collect fares for the city's mass transit system, the Octopus card system has since grown into a widely used payment system for virtually all public transport in Hong Kong. It is also used for payment at convenience stores, supermarkets, fast-food restaurants, on-street parking meters, car parks, and other point-of-sale applications such as service stations and vending machines. it seems like this Octopus card is similar to our Touch-N-Go card, but TNG has limited used, not as convenient as Octopus card.

Nathan road "彌敦道" is where i was at. Nathan Road is the main thoroughfare in Kowloon., that goes in a south-north direction from Tsim Tsa Tsui to Mong Kok. It is lined with shops, restaurants and tourists, and was known in the post-world war II, years as the Golden Mile, a name that is now rarely used. It starts on the southern part of Kowloon at its junction with salisbury road, a few metres north of Victoria Harbour, and ends at its intersection with Boundary Street in the north.

well, a lil story about the most popular place in hong kong - Mong Kok "旺角". Almost everyone of us who have been to hong kong or who have not been to hong kong, and yet everyone of us heard about this famous place.
the chinese translation of Mong Kok means flourishing/busy corner. The district is characterized by a mixture of old and new multi-story buildings, with shops and restaurants at street level and commercial or residential units above. Major industries in Mong Kok are retail, restaurants (including fast food) and entertainment.

i made the stop at Nelson Street stop. Hell ya, at first i have no idea where i was, but i made a call to my girl friend - Peggie. I told her that i need to go Ladies Street "女人街" (Tong Choi Street)... hahaha.. that was easy... it is just behind where i was standing! i slowly walked to it, and quickly snap few pictures. Ladies Street specializes in women's clothing, accessories, cosmetics, and the like. It is open daily from noon to 00.00 a.m. at Tung Choi Street on the east of Nathan Road. Typically, where there is a market, there are also food stalls selling noodles, seafood, and congee for mid-afternoon or late-night snacks. A grocery market is also located in the vicinity, quite convenient for housewives to buy fresh vegetables and pantyhose on the same trip.
i was regreted i didn't shop there, as i was rushing to meet sharon. Sigh... at last day... thought of making a shopping trip here, but too bad... my cash all gone!

then made call to sharon to check where she was. she was waiting at Dai Ga Lok "大家樂". Hell ya... everything here and there are full of color signages, every streets look the same, and a lot of shops around me... i confused... i stopped at a stall and asked the lady where is the Dai Ga Lok, and she willingly gave me the direction, which pointed straight, therefore, i greeted thanks, and walked to her direction. Yes, I saw Dai Ga Lok, when upstairs, and yet, still cant see the tall sharon though, i wonder, and made a call a gain! damn... since then both of us realized that in that area there are a few same restaurants!!!! sigh... well, i patiently waited sharon and leong at a body shop just at a cross road of ladies street and nelson street. hahaha... finally, i found them at Xu Liu San "許留山". we saw a lot of people queing up at Xu Liu San... oh it's a very popular dessert place where you can see it every where in HK. Make sure you try it! I have ordered a drink - mango with birdnest... yum yum!!!!

me, sharon and leong... we started our walking journey from Nelson Street. we were window shopping. we went in to a retail arcade, it was cool place but mainly seeling young hippy street wear. price is reasonable... but did not buy because we wanted to save it for tomorrow outlet shopping! we walked back to Nathan road... and decided to walk to Temple Street "廟街" (mui kai). We took pictures along the way...

Leong was too excited to see the this jockey club. he wanted to take a picture first before go in to see it's evironment. we wanted to try our luck, but too bad, dont know how to bed. it is amazing that football betting is legal and yet you can bet here too. well, i would say it's a one-stop betting solution for all HK's people. it's different from our magnum, damacai and sport toto, where you need to go 3 different locations to buy a number! well... different culture ma... HK friend told me that this Hong Kong Jockey Club (HKJC) has a legal monopoly over betting on horse racing and football. There are now in excess of 100 betting branches throughout the territory which accepts bets on racing and on soccer and buy mark six lottery tickets too. Not only these, This organization is the largest taxpayer in Hong Kong, as well as the largest private donor of charity funds,

A long the way, we hopped in 7-11 "七記"(qi ji) to get water mineral. hahaha... what has attracted us was the beer rack! damn... it is cheap though... 2 bottle of beer only HKD19!!!! where to get woh... some more is the tall can!! sigh... beer is even cheaper than a bottle of water mineral, can you believe it??? so... make sure you drink more beer than water in HK!!!! :) yes, 7-11 is every where in HK, you will see it in every corner... it's like starbucks in NY. it has a lot of choices then our malaysia 7-11. HK 7-11 is a real convenience shop for all.

Temple Street is a street located in the areas of Jordan and Yau Ma Tei in Kowloon. It is probably the most well know night market in Hong Kong, and is popular among both locals and tourist. Temple Street got its name from a temple at the middle of the street. The place is sometimes known as Men’s Street as it was famous for men’s fashion (but they sell all kind of stuff). There are 2 things unique in Temple Street… the snake shops selling snake delicacies, and the large numbers of fortune tellers. You don’t see this often at other Chinese night markets around the world. Other than that, I actually think that Malaysia’s Petaling Street is better than Hong Kong’s Temple Street. Temple Street probably has more stalls, but Petaling Street has more variety and cheaper. Our numbers of food stalls outnumbered theirs obviously, but then both of the markets have different kind of delicacies. Ok... one big different i found was you can buy all sort of sex toys in Temple Street!!! while we can't even seen one in Petaling Street!! :) so dear all, next time if you need some toys... you know where to go ya!
hehe... not only these, Temple Street is well-known for its prostitution activities inside the tenement houses. Many brothels are housed there and it is not difficult to see prostitutes wearing few pieces of clothing exchanging glances with passers-by. Some hustlers on the street bring the men to the brothel and there are many spartan rooms with no more than a bed. There are lots of neon lights on Temple Street to advertise these activities at night.

after a long day walked, we felt hungry! my hongkie friends were organizing a gathering at kowloon city, to have steamboat. hahaha... reason being i had it once during my 2006 trip. sharon and leong also joinned us for this gathering. supposingly jacky would pick me up, but since both were following, and we rather took a cab instead. well, jacky does not tell me the excat location, as i passed the phone to the taxi driver and he talked to jacky for direction. aiyo... the steamboat was at kowloon city wet market. it costs us about HKD35. When reached, jacky brought us to the wet market. hahaha... it was first experience to a local wet market. well, i dont think any tour will bring us such place. it was a good one, because we had local experienced.
very happy and glad to see fanny and howard, as many years since they left UIU in 2002 to CA. of course, my dear best ever buddy - peggie also there, but she was a bit late. hahaha... wanted to introduce her a bit since she is my best buddy - well, we were alcohol kaki during uni time!!! lots of sweet and sour memories were with her. she came with charles, her furniture supplier... yeah, peggie is moving to Yun Long, where she will be leaving by herself soon. Yahoooo... I'll have a place to stay when visiting HK again. hahaha... peggie said definately welcome me woh...:) thanks dear!
ok, why i told jacky that i needed to have steamboat here, reason being i love the beef... damn... it was delicious... moreover, i have discovered a new coke - Coke Zero!!!! the can look cool.. black color... while it taste a bit similar like Diet Coke... Food in HK is expensive la, this steamboat cost us HKD950 - est. RM450!!!! yoh... i think we can have a better food with this price right??? well, ok la... once in a while still could afford...:)

after steamboat... we were heading to victoria harbour "太平山" (tai ping shan). here was our last destination for the day. jacky drove us up. taken few pictures with my camera. the others were taken by sharon's camera. enjoyed the cooling weather up on the hill, as day time was too hot for us. it's a romantic place for couple. too bad jeff was not around with me... and it was awarked that i was with 2 couples!!! what to do... i was happy became a photographer for them... :)

my day 3 journey was ended with beautiful scene of Victoria Harbour... is a natural landform harbour situated between Hong Kong Island and the Kowloon Penisula. Long famous for its spectacular views, the harbour is a major tourist attraction of Hong Kong. Lying in the middle of the territory's dense urban region, the harbour is the site of annual fireworks displays and its promenades are popular gathering places for tourists and residents.
jacky sent sharon and leong to Central Station... and we headed back to City One. thanks to jacky arranging such night for us.

2 views of Victoria Harbour that i found on some website

A little bit about City One, Shatin

2008-09-26T23:12:00.005+08:00

A lil of city one, where i've been staying there during my trip. thanks to jacky and his grand parents. jacky stay at block 6, level 20.
City One is a residential area in Sha Tin which built by a consortium of New World Development, Henderson Land Development, Sun Hung Kai Properties and Cheung Kong Holdings.
City One is the largest residential estate in the Sha Tin District. There are a total of 52 Blocks of residential buildings. These buildings each tower about 30 levels with units ranging from an area of 395 square feet (36.7 square meters) to an area of 1018 square feet (94.6 square meters) with different floor plans. It has been dubbed by leading architectural journals as the 'green lung' of Shatin.The construction of the City One Residential Apartments was completed in seven stages. It was started since 1981.
City One is an excellent township, it has everything that we needed for daily life. This estate consists of high-rise residential blocks, commercial areas (shopping arcades, markets, restaurants, cinemas, car parks and bowling centres), secondary and primary schools, Olympic standard swimming pools, playgrounds and other recreational facilities. It is a high-class residential development offering all forms of modern amenities. Beautifully landscaped, City One Shatin provides a clean, peaceful and comfortable environment for its residents. Within the City One Shatin complex are commercial areas which consist of shopping, eating, recreational and sport facilities catering for the residents' needs. There are shopping arcades, restaurants, a bowling centre, cinemas, markets and car parks. The residents are provided with an Olympic standard swimming pool, tennis courts, squash courts, table tennis courts, basketball courts, playgrounds and other recreational facilities. A multipurpose assembly hall near block 34 was brought into service since May 1997. It is operated by the Estate Management Office and the City Committee. Primary and secondary schools have also been established. Located right in the hub of the Hong Kong's most prosperous new town - Shatin New Town, City One Shatin is conveniently connected with Hong Kong, Kowloon and the New Territories via an efficient network of highways, railways and buses including Citybus link to MTR stations and Central District

arrival night 9.45pm

2008-09-25T23:25:00.011+08:00

took an airport cab to KLIA by myself. check-in too early, was walking around the beautiful KLIA. not many people travel, so security was ok. headed to starbucks for a cup of jelly coffee frap at departure hall. trying the PDA that borrowed from bro. the free Wi-Fi was sucks as connection was damn slow... at 5pm, they called for boarding on CX724... the plane was not full, and i got a window seat, and hope that some handsome guy would seat next too me. well, unlucky that a mid-age uncle from HK sat next to me... and i was pissed that he farted at his place!!!! excuse me... from that moment.. a bad impression to HK people just pop into my head!!!!! what to do.. i just pretended to close my nose after all... i should just stand up, and yell at him that he should go toilet instead!!! ** dont dare to do la...** airplane food has never been good nor nice... i had spicy chicken rice... oh the best was they served Nestle Magnum ice-cream as dessert!!! Cool cool cool...
CX724 landed at 9.45pm, which was exactly on schedule... so satisfied...!! was walking thru from gate 33 to the immigration point... it was a long walk, but with walk elevator to help speed up :) only took about 5 min for immigration... then 15min for luggage...
while waiting for luggage, my heart was pumping... slowly pushing the luggage cart and walk thru the green zone (non-declared zone) and then... smiling... jacky and a gal were standing right in front the exit gate... hahaha.. he seemed not recognize me... then we hugged, and he introduced his step sis - si si. Jeff was not there, he left to china for work...
jacky was driving honda fit.. mmmm... similar to jazz... and we were sending si si back first as her apartment was just next to chek lap kok... her place damn nice leh, like resort style.. mmm... then we were heading to City One - Shatin. It's a huge area.. combine around 30 blocks apartment and a few commercial buildings... full with excellent transportation systems and convenient for everyone!! I wish malaysian gov. would spend their 09 budget wisely as promise to improve our transportation systems... nevertheless, won't hope too much of it though.
Reached home around 10ish... went to 7-11 grab a bottle of green tea.. and went up to apartment. quite a descent place, around 1100 sq foot with 3 bed rooms, 2 bath rooms, 1 kitchen, 1 living room, a balcony with beautiful night view... the Shing Mun River Channel is just right in front.. (pls wait for my pictures...)
me and jacky were chatting till around 1am.. and we felt asleep... till this morning!

final day

2008-09-24T19:03:00.002+08:00

just finish work... finally done handover existing job to colleagues. thanks to all to follow up work for me... ha... yeah, you all will get rewards from me ya...:)
anyway, meeting vince and jojo later for dinner, then later with thevi. well, i am leaving tomorrow, but yet, luggage still empty :( ha... might just bring an empty luggage and back with filling!! *ha.. good idea*
i am exciting... but... and... ya...

empty luggage

2008-09-22T22:48:00.003+08:00

i am leaving on the jet plane this coming thursday, but, my luggage is still empty. not too sure if i am ready to go... and i am afraid.

work

2008-09-22T18:57:00.002+08:00

looking at the new restructured client lists, no much different from mine. still servicing current main clienteles. a few months back, i've been suggesting to my immediate superior to take out maxis for me from next year, yet it's still on mine. this year, maxis spending with us was dropped tremendously, handling such a big spender on media, but yet not spend with us... it's really stressful... i keep asking around, how should i handling such account?? sigh... i need new ideas!
after my holiday, life is gonna be stressful... lot of things to plan, to decide, to execute... after all, i would need to be firmed!

sick leave day

2008-09-22T14:27:00.003+08:00

have no idea... this morning woke up with a lil fever and diarrhea... not too sure what i have eaten last night. of course not blaming mom for her simple home cook food. well, was resting a lil awhile ago, and woke up with emails and to work for a bit. going to see doctor now...

Beautiful 7th Day

2008-09-21T19:59:00.005+08:00

唔知我們有沒有最美的第七天
i wonder what about our beautiful 7th day...

home alone

2008-09-21T19:18:00.004+08:00

staying home preparing work handover and packing for my hong kong trip.
4 more days i am leaving my stressful work life in KL... taking out all thinking about how to hit monthly target. lucky me, october target is achieving, but i want to achieve next level to get more commission. sigh... i am still working hard for the catch-up plan, and next year plan. I am not too sure for now where i am heading to. there are many thing on my head...

sleepless night

2008-09-21T07:28:00.001+08:00

it's already 7.26am, Sunday, i cant sleep! i am still awake... and i am thinking about him...

Bon Voyage

2008-09-20T00:29:00.007+08:00

Kelly is leaving back to Australia tomorrow. I have thought of going to airport to meet her once again, but she said not a good idea. Yesterday, few of them met her up in Sunway, but kinda sad that I was not invited :( Well, it's ok... hope to see her again next year if afford to travel Australia. Wishing her all the best... Bon Voyage!! Take Care

180908 - madelliion grey - My-Vi

2008-09-18T23:34:00.009+08:00

quite a while i have not update my blog. today is a special day for me.
woke up early to attend CIMB Max InvestSave's launching at KL Hilton. Went there early to meet up client and did some PR. CIMB is one of next year priority client set on my list. went back office around 1ish and had lunch together with desmond. i had a bowl of pork noodle soup and ice tea. weather was so hot but rain a bit. after lunch, rush back office to do production for nutribeverage and samsung. sigh.. smi client is not easy, they are always demanding much, scripting changed few times.. well, no matter how, i'll have to make sure their first radio commercial is the best.
i left office a lil early as to pick up mom at segambut, and we were rushed to uptown meeting bro at the perodua sales center. last week, mom offered to sponsor me a downpayment and 50% repayment for a new car. hahaha... of course i said yes. today, i booked a brand new MYVi with Medallion grey (blue-grey). I didnt get the special edition, but EZi premium. I love it... it's cool.. new facelift with better accessories and the UV screen... oh oh audio with mp3.. bluetooth.. and usb.. very spacious too. for the past few days i was 'fan' of thinking about what color to have.. i like white, but it's need of patient and lotz of attention.. which means need more money for color maintainance.
i am very happy... finally i have a new car.. better remind me to get an indoor parking soon!!!!
not only my new car... but 6 more days i am seeing my dear jeff. everything happen in a same month... how nice... hope jeff is around to share my happiness

another weekend

2008-09-06T22:00:00.001+08:00

It's Saturday, nice weather, chilling day. I have canceled all appointments and activities and to stay at home. supposed to go bowling but i didn't. phone was offline from morning afternoon, received few missed call and sms from friends. i didnt reply any of them.

the old red folks

2008-08-29T01:28:00.006+08:00

these were the red teammates that we have working together last year.. pearly, vincent, rachel, and kelly; zach was not in here!

i miss us as a team.... rachel was the first left the group, then follow by zach, and pearly left us in May after my birthday.
as today, kelly last day with us... *sob sob* i'll do miss my friend here, it will be very sad to see her leaving, so i've made appointments at 3.30pm and 5.30pm... i hope she could understand.
those days before reshuffled, i would say it was the greatest time for us...
time flies.. as memories keep..

story end...

2008-08-25T03:32:00.001+08:00

the story started here... and it was ended with queit way..

photo album

2008-08-25T03:24:00.001+08:00

Rain all day.. and it was rejuvated sunday! I was spring clean my room, and flipped thru US album, and the pic above was a classic one that i remember most - it's a real goat!
Looking thru all the pictures i have taken during the 3 years stay.. i still want to say i have enjoyed life over there and i would love to be there again... Hopefully my new plans will work out well for this time.
Recently, few friends were questioned me bout my new life.. No doubt i would tell u all when time is right...
I want to get a holiday soon, but still cant decide where to go... :-P

3am

2008-08-22T03:46:00.002+08:00

A very long day for me! Almost out of office whole day. Reached office about 1ish, bumped into bosses and we went the mall kopitiam for lunch. Food there look good but i only ordered a drink. Finally got few min sat on my chair, but very soon i started running around to settle tasks. Then was rushing out again for the last appointment of today. Timmund followed.. It was ended ard 4.30.. Luckily traffic was ok and reached office 5ish.
I stayed till 9ish, and went sri gombak, had a bowl of maggi soup. Both of us will never stay the same again! 1 year.. was enough for me to him; no matter what i say, what i do, his heart will never close to me. I should say so near yet so far!
I am slowly walking thru a new life, new sharon, new thinking, and u! So much happier when u know someone is there with u no matter wut.. Oh, damn ill miss u now already.. Haha..
Gonna rush out a power point for monday pitching presentation.. That's why am still awake.

last project

2008-08-20T01:49:00.001+08:00

Kelly is leaving us by end of this month to Aus. Knowing that she has taken quite some times for her decision, and yes she has made the right choice. We are in same team since she joined us, and she is always there to help me regardless of matters. I will definately miss her a lot as colleague and as friend. Hope she will doing good in Aus.
This pic was taken at our parent company-the star during the smi assoc. press confrence. last project with her.
What i could remember most from her; she always ask me not to think so much, she always tell me that i could get a better man, and i deserved more.. She is always there to cherish me.. and of course we have a same husband! Hahaha... Nevertheless we have never fight for the man! Vince, how lucky you got 2 pretty and yet considerate wifey!!!
Office environment is getting colder... one and another is leaving... No, i will want to stay longer because i would want to achieve my personal goal before i move too far.. It has room to growth, as long as focus what you're doing...
I could not afford to resign and without a job.. I have been gone thru the pain.. But at the end myself suffered.
Since last year i have been thinking about looking for a job, and i tried, got an offer from ex-boss. I didnt take the offer.. As always reminding myself that i want a career and not a job.
No matter where you work.. It will be the same if your heart not with them. Keep hopping cant determine your career, it could be favored for your temporary job satisfaction..

new life

2008-08-17T04:03:00.002+08:00

Been awhile i have not update my blog... These days i was fine n ok.. Going thru a new life.. and walking thru my old life, by appreciating someone than him.. Who i love for exactly a year, and waited a year to complete get over him.. and cheers finally i could be a better me from now! Yeah..

miss my buddy

2008-07-30T04:16:00.003+08:00

was chatting with vince while driving back home.. It was all bout work and company issues that we have encountering. i love talking to him bout work, as he is always analyze and use common sense to apply in his theories. dun ever under estimate this smart guy, he could be one of the genius in the company. although we used to gaduh over his ignorant, but it was all fun to be that way. miss him sitting next to me since company decided transferred him to penang in may. yeah, both of us made to explore biz opportunities in penang last feb.. as till now he still keep complaining that i got lucky to close a deal from the trip.. Haha.. hope that he will be back KL soon.. and start our fighting again.. lol
Remember the last trip he was back, we met up for McD at KK, that night i have shared my personal stuffs with him.. and my tears drop while telling him my all time unsolved feeling ..(dun think he has realized it) after that night, i have realized that what he told me was true.. and i took his words - pulling off! Thanks bf!

a quick one

2008-07-30T01:23:00.004+08:00

it was a busy tuesday... one day on MC was really killed! went to agency for a discussion, and at same time, 2 planners called for briefing, luckily it was at the same building... hiaz... then straight back to office. not even sit at my desk, went out lunch with colleague from CAT to share about the briefs and discussed ideas. worst still, everything has to be out by tomorrow! after the discussion ard 2ish, went back office and went in sales meeting at 3. sigh... non-stop!!! of course as usual sales meeting take up about 3 hours and ended about 6ish. it was a good meeting, quite happy, i've learned something new in the 3 damn hours! pending works are still awaiting, and that's why am still awake to finish up most of them.
I wonder, how could afford to go for a long holiday, which i wanted nor needed so much? my trip to US... ???!!!!! sigh... not easy...

life always not easy to become perfect

ski.. with me?

2008-07-29T02:03:00.003+08:00

i miss ski a lot, eventhough am not a sporty person.. perhaps i love the atmosphere with sparkling snow.. i wish i could go for a trip here with u.. be at a far far land where nobody cares bout us.. Just u and me, see the different of us.. to explore more between us as out in this boring KL! the last trip was good and memorable, but yet to discover the real u! Pls express well to urself, there are simple words around us; yes, no, i dun want, i dun love.. i rather u to tell me straight to my face; pls fuck off of my life, and dun bother me; rather than u tell me nothing.. dun ever asked again why am love u so much, and wanted a life with u; i couldn't answer well enough nor express my feeling. just u... u should know how deep it was or it's alway stay in my heart... I just wanted to say for last and be shut up forever - i just want to our life together work out and be there at your shoulder all time.. I needed so much to lean on u every nites every days.. I needed u to feel no burden with me.. and i love u as what you are, and u do love me by caring bout my feeling

I like

2008-07-28T01:34:00.001+08:00

I love this picture so much till couldn't tell the reason. laying on the bed and trying to sleeping. only slept for few hours last night. It was dylan and rachel big day. after the dinner we brought two dylan brothers to soho kl, which is at solaris, mt. kiara. two of them from singapore, kelvin and marcus. of course they wanted to go party here, n olivia suggested the place. We continue drink, after the wine challenge during dinner time with our bride and groom. too bad i was sober enough to take both of them to hotel.. but a bit tired already cause it was ended ard 2ish, we went spicy right after that. It was a fun night n sexy nite though.. Oh ya.. finally I got my new haircut, and awaiting for it to get longer.. real miss it.
anyway.. Hoping tmr has a beautiful morning and wonderful day

7.11pm

2008-07-24T19:12:00.003+08:00

still at office... don't know what time will want to go off...
today, a long day for me, 2 appointments in the morning, then was rushing back office to pick up erin and tim for lunch appointment... damn.. i was driving with about 130km... luckily we arrived before client. i would say the lunch was good, but the initial plan that we wanted to talk about was abolished when we started talking about new media... client was very kin and looking forward to work along together for this big project... sigh... well, ya... a good thing for me... all because of $$$$$$$$... was out office the whole half day, came back with running here and there (as usual...) for liasing with other department... **phew** my task lists on my desktop only done a thing ! the rest... still there... :( ok.. i need to continue doing cost evaluation already...

to all my frens are going KK for mountain climbing... kambade... always...

3:30am

2008-07-24T03:41:00.001+08:00

Still awake.. Trying to sleep but i cant. Am hugging my all time favor soft toy - 'little white tiger 小白老虎' i got him since 01. But we were apart for a year when i broke off with bruce. Bruce took it away from me because he wanted it as memory for both of us. Once he told me that he cant sleep without it. After a year he owned it, in 04, i received a suprise christmas gift fr cali.. finally tiger was back.. with a box of my favor choc - godiva!
...(sob ....)
that was the most bad decision that i've made.. the most hurting moment that i made him gone away from me.. someone who i trusted most, who i shared most, who i gone thru any seasons, who i argued most, who i travel most.. and who i love most!

Dear friends, please appreciate the one you love.. the one walking along with you..

sleepless nights

2008-07-23T23:31:00.003+08:00

it's another night i couldn't sleep... my brain is still active, and i wish i could just sleep off forever for not worry everything and anything...
recently, a lot of unspeakable things have happenned around myself... i wish i could afford to take a long break, i can't wait till oct for going back fayette... been checking up taiwan and hk packages... going to be a lone ranger trip again since last trip in 06. i've never been travel with friends nor someone that i wish to go travel with... sad right? it's ok... i could survive!

why?

2008-07-23T01:36:00.002+08:00

when back office after lunch with Beans... it was a good lunch with them after 2 months... of course i paid for it... kinda happy to receive their gift from suprise... a perfume set...

well, it was nice... but when time stepping in office, the mood changed. knowing i got a lot of things to be settled and solved, or even creating more and more chores..

Sunday

2008-07-20T17:42:00.003+08:00

woke up around 12noon... received a call from Jimmy, was telling me that penang is rainning and he can't make the star ride stop at wou. immediately i made a called to client, asked if they wanted to carry it on or canceled it. he said go-ahead with using umbrella! sigh.. kesian Jimmy and other crews... hope everything goes well with them...
as usual, took a shower, with music on since last night... then continue my work...
mom bought a new desk and chairs for Hui Xin from Ikea.. aiya, me as 'gu jie' gonna fix it for her la... aiyo... damn furniture, made my hand painful... lol
about 4pm, took mom and niece went for a car wash, hell no.. coulda find one in KK anymore!! all closed down... sigh... instead we went Mc.D to have ice cream! aiya.. who else the happiest one?? Hui Xin of course!!

quite happy with spending time with fam... that's what i want to do so far...

怀念的地方与朋友们 - memorable places & friends

2008-07-19T22:48:00.025+08:00

(the amish county, the iowa city, the UIU campus, the main street apt, the downtown pub, the Wiscosin Madison, the Chicago, the union street apt, the big apple, the fayette library, the UIU home ...... bruce, frank, denise, catherine, chun, lisa, austin, sam, nani, da ge, micheal, anne, cindy, joe, jacky, chris, justin, peggie, koni, jason, lam, winnie, fanny, howard, kohei, calvin, eric xiao chu, small allen.............)

在美国住了3年，这几天都很怀念那里的风景那里的生活。只从在2003年10月回来后，一直都很想回去一个可以过着平静无忧，可以离开现在吵闹及无人情味的city生活

waikiki@tmn tun

2008-07-17T21:15:00.001+08:00

Meeting up raj and his colleagues after months.. Oh exactly 62days..:-) here very nice place lo.. First time! I'm sitting on a swing chair, cool la, but a bit wasted coz i have no partner. Aiya, it's ok, am rather comfortable than the bar chair.
Am enjoying the band while having beer! Of course open bottle is a must la.. Wait and see :-P

717 8:12am

2008-07-17T08:24:00.003+08:00

Reached office bout 8! As usual, switched on my computer to let it warming up while i came out to lift lobby and i saw smoke from opposite, eh.. Just behind the perkeliling flat.. Am wondering what happen, i didnt see or hear any ambulance nor fire trucks, hope no one is hurt.
Today is a long day for our team. Since yesterday we went mindshare together and it was a good one. Quite a bit of tasks need to be done before weekend. A lot of planning, including how to hit August target. Next month would be the toughest, so far on-hand only got few thousands, and need another 180k to hit! I need money :) Hopefully I could go US in Oct!!! sigh I'm missing the falls.. the steaks.. potatoes.. and wal-mart!!!

recently you

2008-07-17T00:47:00.002+08:00

since last week, before the trip to penang... my heart was broken when reading your blog... until today, i didnt talk much with you, one main reason - no matter how much i care, how much i want you to be good and not to follow my footsteps... you seemed not the person that i met a year ago. my worries to you... my supports to you... my courages to you... anything and whatever seems faded... you started loosing faith to yourself... i seriously very upset

just frust.

2008-07-15T19:02:00.005+08:00

i couldn't work for now, i am very lost after came out from the meeting. we all don't have the sales direction nor company direction. the meeting started with adex spending in general market, compared to our station and competitor. we are not doing well for this year, while our competitor is the superhero as of now. yes, the recent increased in fuel, inflation approaching, and of course our political issues... all these are facts that lots of companies are holding their budget. but have he thought of the main reason of the drop in sales??? as we already mentioned so many times that most the clients already locked their budget with our competitors since last year! damn.. where's the sales plan? where's the master plan that should send out months ago? arrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh.....

711 - "Queit Friday with Suprise"

2008-07-11T23:50:00.001+08:00

today is friday, and it was a easy going day... many colleagues have left to penang for tomorrow GCMC mini concert. well, i'll be leaving tomorrow morning with Gin, Min, Char, Tina.

i woke up late.. sorry ya... tertidur la.. reached office about 10.45am, and was waiting O&M for recording. They were 10min late!!! then i introduced myself, and to most production colleagues, of course, our talents. I lari myself for awhile when recording was on. of course lari to check email, can't afford just to stay there and wait. after 30min, i went back there. Recording took about hour!! then proceeded to production. aiyo, eeeee...mmmm... he is a fussy ass.. (sshhhss) total of 6 versions with 3 different sound effects! arrrrrggggghhhhh... however, i can't complain much because of this, i hit my July target already!!! well, i need around RM1200 to hit 110%!!! damn.. i better work on this so that i could use the extra income to cover my August expenses! seriously, August is the highest month for me!! :( i scared no hit and no com and no money loh!!! so far, if any positive nor goes well without cut cost, estimated would have ard RM100k. sigh, while my target is ard RM 240k. for the rest of the month, i would work my ass off... will gorek gorek kau kau! 'MX' better give me at least RM60k for the next so called planned campaign.

anyway, talking too much about figures now... headache headache...

Nicholas aka Nic, 988 DJ... today is his last day with us!!!! the only one who has good looking is leaving us!!! :( ***sob sob*** well, he is joining our competitor!! i greated him all the best... and will wait to see him on TV soon! Nic.. "JIA YOU - KAMBATE"

after the photo session and chit-chatting session were over, Kel, Min, Pearl, KW, Tim were exercising by climbing up and down 19th floors. Hahaha... cool ya... "piak piak...." Kel, Min, and Gin are going to KK mountains in two weeks time... sigh, not sure their stamina is up max or not... especially dear Gin... kinda worry la.. but i will giving full supports in KL... hahaha :) Cheerssss... all angels!!! time for dinner, we went for 'dai cao' near office. Dan bumped into us and he was tempted with the delicious food we were having.. and got few bites of it...
it was a queit day... but full of meanings!

The big boss

2008-07-11T01:53:00.003+08:00

Hui Xin aka B, she is my niece! Very naughty gal! Everyone says she looks like when i was a child.. Yeah i agree.. definately! Soon she will become the big sis.. Sigh.. for the past few months, i was busy at work and always got home late, so not much chance to see her. She is cute, not bad :-D Hope to spend more time with her

funny her

2008-07-10T19:38:00.003+08:00

i was scratching my head doing a cost evaluation, while then i went out to the lobby to get a puff. i bumped into her! i was about to ask her some work related thingy, as i mentioned earlier, a simple yes or no should be the answer. 'SHE' was answering me that my client business strategy was wrong, and what their strategy now will make them loosing business share, and will eventually killing themselves... oh god.. what the hell was that???? client's business strategy vs money yes or no???? cool.. i threw her a simple question - 'do you want me to change client's business strategy???' Great great great... it's good to understand well about how our clients doing their business, this is a must that we all need to know. but don't ever prejudice or make such stupid comments which or when you are not working with them!!! please pay respect to our clients! hey.. they are the one who pay us bonus!!!

Contra

2008-07-10T15:50:00.003+08:00

Because of the contra deal that management asked to deal for the artistes for GCMA, I couldn't sleep well every night for not getting it done. Today, finally got the contract signed, but, due to date of event approaching soon, and artistes were making noise of not getting the tickets, management gave the green light to purchase the tickets instead of waiting... and we bought most the tickets from other travel agency... while only remained 2 groups of people that need it from my client. I've already told client that we couldn't wait for the signature, and proceeded to purchase most of them... client came back and sounded not happy, why? I've already told them the reason of time... and we cant wait.. arrrrgggghhhhh... seriously, I would not want to do any contra deal from now, it's terrible and yet doesn't help much into my revenue, 10%? you think 10% is enough???? yes.. am blogging during office hour... wanna give me warning letter... go ahead! :(

Why?

2008-07-10T10:50:00.002+08:00

Earlier, I saw something... upset me... why????!!!!!

good comment

2008-07-09T19:56:00.004+08:00

Hey hey.. good comment from client about the recent "ELF" campaign. Kinda happy about it.
The process of getting this done was exhausted, although it was a simple 'yes' or 'no' vs 'money' or 'no money'.. :) I purposely sent an email to the respective manager for the comment.. aiyo.. hope that what cannot be done nor scared about this and that.. should improve the way of communications..

a day...

2008-07-07T23:15:00.001+08:00

Had a hectic day.. Morning went to 4th floor alone to get my breakfast, of course must have a cup of nescafe breakfast. Ordered 2 half-boiled eggs with a toasted bread. Then reading the sun while waiting for the first meeting. The meeting was about a new media with 3G. It was quite interesting, but I was there for 30min, then rush out wif Dilly to attend the 2nd meeting at crowne plaza. It was a good meeting, and eventually, I'll get free spa treatment soon at Angsana Spa; it has nice and cozy ambience, especially the gardens with wooden huts.. cant wait to get the luxurious... Headed back office, and was preparing notes for the next meeting. I would consider it as important appointment although we ended up at Starbucks instead of the boring - 'M-' :)

MAS, is now become my 'super hero' client!!! Thanks to the recent campaign - 'ELF'. Hey, they should advertise more, and kill the Air Asia (sorry ah, AA is too stuck-up... sharon low told me that we should feel pride if AA advertise in our radio... !!!??? sigh..) Of course, I would like to thank 'M-' too for the supports and appreciate our creative work!! Well, meeting was ended around 6.45pm...

Nescafe breakfast

2008-07-07T09:51:00.009+08:00

Having a cup of nb everyday is a must..

SG's fren

2008-07-07T03:13:00.003+08:00

It was amazing when you got to know someone thru facebook. I have never thought of meeting anyone from fb, but him, he is special.. Max from Singapore, married with a lovely Johorian..
That was one lonely weekend last year end, i was at home and checking fb to let time pass.. Received a msg from him thru Zoosk. Usually i wont simply reply nor i will just ignore, but, that day i started my virgin move.
Am glad that we met after a week later when he came KL for meeting. I met KY and Xin Kai too..
Luckily, Max is nice guy.. Oh ya he and KY can talk bout work all the times! which i dun like..:-P

alone

2008-07-05T21:03:00.001+08:00

alone... and alone...

it's ok to be alone...

the friday

2008-07-05T17:10:00.004+08:00

since 4/7 morning, i was hoping that the darkness would approaching soon... therefore i went back home early, had dinner at home and was watching astro with mom... while waiting for him. hour by hours... and he never called never sms... i then sms him at 11.44pm - yes, no reply.. i called him an hour later 12.49am - he picked up, and it was too noisy and i hung up and sms him that very noisy - yes, no reply.. an hour later 1.37am i sms him again - yes, no reply again.. and finally, 2.44am i sms him again : "U ok or not ma? I am worrying bout u la.. at least give me a call ma.. sigh" - yes, he replied at 2.46am : "Follow danny to eat supper. I ok."
I was laying on the bed, waiting for him, for the special night that we've planned...
I am sad... I am worry... I am failing accept the worst of you...

哈哈..什么的代言人?!

2008-07-04T10:11:00.005+08:00

I love taking pictures.. Sitting alone at the cafeteria, having a cup of nescafe breakfast.. Killing time, by not want to think bout work.. Hope that darkness is approaching soon while i could get home early with happiness .. and

I am who I am

2008-07-04T00:23:00.006+08:00

人们，是不是总追求着伸出手后的前方一点点的东西？
并且，在得到了以后，毫无办法的又望着更前方一点点的东西？
人的心，实在太深，太难明解

「你⋯⋯究竟想要什么？」

我⋯⋯究竟想要什么？我不知道。
別人所給予的，实在太多。

現在只是想，緩緩地深深潜入生活，
让所谓的时间在淡化了无聊的欲望以后，
來告诉我心裡思念的是什么吧。

什么人可以留在我的心里，或许需要很长的一段时间来淡化，
或许到那時候物是已人非

心里真正的声音不停的追求
或許是因为，沒有什么想追求……

沒有什么想追求，卻让人不停地追求….

伸出了手，盼望掌紋可以指引我走出这闪耀空虛的jungle吧。。

I am who I am !!

什么是爱情啊？？

2008-07-04T00:03:00.002+08:00

在男女之間的愛情
彼此都渴望被愛、被保護的需要
那所謂的 (被愛是幸福的，而愛一個人卻是辛苦的)
是否有機會成為 (被愛是辛苦的，而愛一個人卻是幸福的)

現代的社會愛情價值觀裡
已經不再像是以前的愛情哲學論
(男追女，隔層山，女追男，隔層紗)
現在的男女
隨著時代的腳步在轉變
愛情的模式
是否建立在物質生活上?

過去的愛:可以是朋友，可以是敵人，也可以避不見面，就算遇見了也當成不認識對方
有些人會問
做不成情人，還能做朋友嗎?
或許有很多的人都希望能和舊情人成為朋友
不過大多數的都不希望自己的情人和舊情人還是朋友

愛情就像擲骰子一樣
你永遠不知道下一次擲出的是什麼數字
你也不知道下一次出現的會是什麼樣的人。

愛情，它是一個讓人永遠無法得不到標準答案的問題

又是一天

2008-07-03T19:04:00.004+08:00

又是刁难的一天。。
好无奈好不自在。。
好闷好气。。
很不懂到底什么是good planning.
到底是我自己不明白还是别人就是那么要刁难你而忘记它
我什么时候变成这样了呢？
我可是一个可宽恕的人也，但是一次次的无奈可不能接受不能容忍
做sales的我当然要钱。。要figure。。要revenue。。
可是我不能每一次都100%服从你们的要求。。我开始不能接受你们那越来越过分的要求了！！
现在还在公司的我，看见桌面上的scripts, proposals, contracts.. 李里拉差的什么冬冬都对我来说已经失去那份感情了。。我再也不想要碰它。。
到底我还是Account Manager吗？还是已经成为coordinator了丫!!!????

&%$#就是乱&#@*

2008-07-03T02:09:00.004+08:00

不知道自己到底為什麼要怎麼煩
也不知道自己到底想要的什麼
只知道自己的心情亂七八糟的
想大叫
想大哭
想躲避
想放棄
想消失
但卻又通通做不到
我真是个"懦弱"的大笨蛋

***I AM LOST IN MY DEEP BLUE MOOD***

萬事起頭難..拉自己一把

2008-07-03T02:04:00.000+08:00

最近夜越深~~~
頭腦想的事越多

時候到了.....
是時候到了.....
我很清楚自己的處境
越清楚心中疑慮越多
每每都想找個聽懂我情緒的人
用簡單的言語
就可以解開我心中快爆開的結
那人？？

人總說~~~~
萬事起頭難
或許是自己擔心恐懼
阻礙自己踏出的腳步
但是如果因為這樣而遲疑
錯過了機會
錯過了改變
錯過了證明自己

我想我只能更堅強更有勇氣
掩蓋心中的所有情緒
衝....衝....衝吧!!!

Get a grip!!

使用新产品 - VICHY

2008-06-30T22:53:00.011+08:00

很多年前在杂志上已经认识了VICHY.喜欢看台湾杂志的我每一次都有留意美容产品，例如DHC,SOFINA,FANCL,IPSA..这些都还没来到Malaysia.今天心血来潮，竟然买了一直想尝试的它。VICHY终于在去年降临Malaysia.当然很高兴，因为我觉得这产品很适合热带国家尤其是我国。

刚刚涂上的night cream,感觉很好，希望4 week后就可以看到result吧。希望大大的毛孔可以变成小小的呢！^.^
以前的我花了很多钱在脸上，千多块的SKII都投资到破产，还好还知道收手停止使用。SKII的确不错尤其是那Treatment Essence..可是真的有点贵啦！停了使用后真的有反效果-皮肤差了很多也！所以说我建议的是别只靠一个品牌，不妨试试通一次用几个品牌。
我呀，我很喜欢cosmetics..还有想过代理KL还没有的品牌！！！哈哈。。我看我的梦想还离我很远吧！那好了我会时不时和你们share share一些beauty的资讯吧！你们要看噢！

For you.. Dear Gin..

2008-06-29T22:30:00.009+08:00

艺人：曹格 (Gary Chaw)
语言：国语
作曲：曹格
作词：阿丹/邬裕康
编曲：凃惠源

雨不停落下来花怎么都不开
尽管我细心灌溉你说不爱就不爱我一个人欣赏悲哀

爱只剩下无奈我一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间永远都夹着空白缺了一块就不精采

紧紧相依心如何Say goodbye 你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂勇敢我用背叛自己完成你期盼

把手放开不问一句Say goodbye 当作最后一次对你溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管只要你能愉快

心有一句感慨我还能够跟谁对白
你关上门之前替我再回头看看那些片段还不

Gary Chaw's Concert - Welcome to My World

2008-06-29T03:10:00.010+08:00

28 June 2008, 8pm, Bukit Jalil Putra Indoor Stadium, VVIP E11-E12

Gary 曹格 WELCOME TO MY WORLD 演唱会记者会现场！

988 震动人心

2008-06-24T01:38:00.003+08:00

512 it was a nightmare for all of us. A song dedicated to all victims!

we care & we love...

the luckiest day 062208

2008-06-23T01:13:00.003+08:00

就是气

2008-06-18T02:42:00.001+08:00

这两天都在家clear leave.不算很长的时间，可是也可在我最不想上班之中可以停下手头上的工作，其实施乐在其中。上个星期过的有好有坏。我很不明白为什么某人可以如此的对我，一时冷一时热，我太不了解他，根本抓不足他到底在想什么。那晚回到家忍不住躺在床上我哭了，我很不高兴得盖着我的杯子就大声的哭哭啼啼。让我不高兴的而不是他不体贴然而搞不清楚台对我的态度的变化。我不是玩偶，我是有感觉的人丫！！！我接受不到你这样的对我！对，我很sensitive不过你更过分！

emotion vs. weather

2008-05-27T00:38:00.005+08:00

感情 world 和天氣一樣，很難預測
出現變化的時候，可能連半點先兆也沒有
今天仍是熱戀，明天卻可以提出分手
那時候縱使是迫不得已，我們還是要離場
或許我們會依依不捨地留下來，期望 Miracle 的發生
只是 Miracle 那麼容易發生的話，就不會叫做 Miracle
或許…的確明明自己是主角，卻硬要離場
這種 emotional feeling 絕對難以形容
尤其找不到問題所在的時候，內心一定更難受
是時候離場，但卻留在場中，對雙方並沒有好處
至少不會因此而感到 happy
離場後，大家也得到喘息的 space
由 insider 到 outsider
說不定能看清事情，知道 problem 所在
不過當天我們進場的時候，不是應該有離場的心理準備嗎？
畢竟 nobody 會保證我們和對方天長地久
當天能夠牽手，他朝也可以分手
能做的，就是盡力做好自己
免得一旦失去的時候 ….. 會因此而後悔
能長相廝守固然是最好，但真的無法這樣，至少也不會遺憾。
當然，有時候是我們自願離場，不過無論是自願，還是迫不得已
在過程中做好自己，離開以後也不會覺得虧欠過誰
也不會因此感到遺憾
能問心無愧
總比一直沒有做好自己，到離開才後悔來得好
離場，就不要太過留戀 past
執著過去的事情，只會使自己無法看清未來的種種可能性
離場的確令人很難受，可是我們還是要面對現實
或者是難過，或許是傷心
只是發生了的除了接受和面對，的確沒有更好的法子
In a real life….
離場不過是其中一次的學習而已......